O hai, I'm Brian. I'm 17 but I usually pass off as 18/19ish. l'll probably be posting and reblogging a lot of things including but not limited to, Dubstep, stenciling, street art, videos, stage crew, dancing, longboarding, lights, and photography.


Just shoot me a message if you wanna chat

 

It’s 2:30 in the morning and I’m honestly about to break down and cry in my dorm room. My roommate snores like a fucking whale and I can’t sleep and it’s driving me insane and I’m already having a bad moment and I really just wanna hold a pillow over his fucking face.

I’m trapped by my thoughts and insecurities and self hate and obsessions over things around me and this fucking douche bag of a roommate needs to move somewhere else, I’m tired of hearing him run his mouth and call girls sluts and be an overall dick. He’s got his fat fucking pimply ass crack in plain view of the room and I’m about to break his toes with pliers.

College is great. That is as long as the Internet actually works and the douche - mate is gone and when things aren’t overwhelming.

I haven’t burnt myself in about a month but I’m reaching my boiling point.

I’m not usually able to tell people about what I feel like because I feel judged and mocked by my peers. But I’ll basically give it a go.

I feel like people around me are plotting against me, deep down i know they’re not but my thoughts race all day long telling me that the girl that just looked at me weird wants to hurt me or that people will refuse to take my side in anything.

The best way I can describe my deepest fears is by adding this clip from the movie Silver Linings Playbook

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=euFZvkAQOHk

Everything around me starts to spin and my walls start closing in and I feel trapped and I just want to lash out and get some room to breathe and I end up hurting people’s feelings and offending them. I feel attacked the majority of the time because I have views that go against the norm, I feel alone and like everything is my fault and all I want to do is punish myself, and once I punish myself Im still upset and hurt and lonely and i just want to get back at the people that made me hate myself in the first place.

I guess what I’m saying is that I want to be left alone and not harassed by people anymore, I want to feel safe and if you people on tumblr get undone about when people try to take away your voice but then go and bully people that disagree with you, then fuck you because you’re a hypocrite.

Writing this has calmed me down a lot considering I was ready to burn my arms until I couldn’t feel anything.

During the day I have fun, but at night when I’m laying here I get really homesick and have overwhelming moments. Thank you to anyone that reads this post, and if you have similar experiences could you shoot me a message, it would help a lot to have someone I can relate to

piratesjokerqueen:

me: *puts on fan tshirt before going out*

me: *AGGRESSIVELY HOPES A FELLOW FAN WILL NOTICE AND HAVE A MOMENT OF FAN JOY WITH ME*

(Source: hotmazingpiratequeen)

Anonymous asked
So many feminists are quick to call out poorly developed female characters and how sexist the author is. Do they ever stop and realize that many of the male characters are just as poorly developed and that maybe the author is just shitty at writing characters?

checkmatethatprivilege:

some of the people on this site say stuff like “lol men don’t know anything about the female anatomy” but seconds later say stuff like “condoms fit everyone and if someones says it doesn’t fit them they’re lying”

(Source: checkmateyourprivilege)

heroinfriday:

jungs-endless-shadow:

heroinfriday:

getoveryourselflady:

I get preached to by media and on the internet about how all men think with their penis even though there is thousands upon thousands of females that would drop to their knees to suck the dicks of every hot male celebrity they have posted on their bedroom wall or fantasized about in the bathtub. This idea women are less perverted and sexual as men is a false stereotype designed to shame men and their sexuality. Then irony is when women admit to it, it’s called woman empowerment or she’s exploring her sexuality, but when guys do it we’re told we’re filthy pigs with a one track mind. Well excuse us for being human!
#doublestandards #magicmikesucked

You people should talk to my boyfriend, the freaking male stripper. 
He’ll open up your eyes to a whole new world of what women are like in sexual settings.
-Liv

I’ve heard multiple anecdotes about just how aggressive women can be with male strippers.

Extremely aggressive, and demanding. 
The difference between male and female strippers is that IT’S PERFECTLY FINE FOR SOME WOMAN TO JUST RUN UP TO MY BOYFRIEND AND FULL ON GRAB HIS DICK, but you know, you can’t even throw coins too hard at female strippers without getting roughly tossed out of the establishment. 
Also, my boyfriend has had to personally remove women from the club where he was dancing. There was no big beefy security for him.
-Liv

heroinfriday:

jungs-endless-shadow:

heroinfriday:

getoveryourselflady:

I get preached to by media and on the internet about how all men think with their penis even though there is thousands upon thousands of females that would drop to their knees to suck the dicks of every hot male celebrity they have posted on their bedroom wall or fantasized about in the bathtub. This idea women are less perverted and sexual as men is a false stereotype designed to shame men and their sexuality. Then irony is when women admit to it, it’s called woman empowerment or she’s exploring her sexuality, but when guys do it we’re told we’re filthy pigs with a one track mind. Well excuse us for being human!

#doublestandards #magicmikesucked

You people should talk to my boyfriend, the freaking male stripper. 

He’ll open up your eyes to a whole new world of what women are like in sexual settings.

-Liv

I’ve heard multiple anecdotes about just how aggressive women can be with male strippers.

Extremely aggressive, and demanding. 

The difference between male and female strippers is that IT’S PERFECTLY FINE FOR SOME WOMAN TO JUST RUN UP TO MY BOYFRIEND AND FULL ON GRAB HIS DICK, but you know, you can’t even throw coins too hard at female strippers without getting roughly tossed out of the establishment. 

Also, my boyfriend has had to personally remove women from the club where he was dancing. There was no big beefy security for him.

-Liv

thetruearkher:

spacedoutsparrow:

peacocktales:

toiletpaperlint:

tommilsom:

patronsaintoffirebenders:

oh

oh

oh

What wage gap

The wage gap where more well known companies with more products make more money than companies you’ve never even heard of. That’s kinda how business works.

This is where I point out the number was just a TINY bit inflated.

thetruearkher:

spacedoutsparrow:

peacocktales:

toiletpaperlint:

tommilsom:

patronsaintoffirebenders:

oh

oh

oh

What wage gap

The wage gap where more well known companies with more products make more money than companies you’ve never even heard of. That’s kinda how business works.

This is where I point out the number was just a TINY bit inflated.

(Source: ilookincredibeetus)

privilegedenyingfeministcunt:

itsahellnoradfemschristmas:

antibadstuffprogoodstuff:

throh:

scientists took a photo of mras and anti-sj bloggers everywhere and combined them all into this image of the average anti-sj blogger
truly amazing

What’s this? Judging someone based solely on their appearance and shaming them for being a virgin? My how progressive, way to get rid of the societal gender pressures and advocate a society where a man’s worth isnt determined by his sexual prowess

Such feminism. Very gender role smashing. Wow.

Shaming women for being promiscuous or not complying with expected physical maintenance habits (ie shaving)? HORRIBLE, MISOGYNISTIC, HOW DARE YOU!
Shaming men for not being promiscuous or not complying with expected physical maintenance habits? lolz
You did the equality! Congrats!

privilegedenyingfeministcunt:

itsahellnoradfemschristmas:

antibadstuffprogoodstuff:

throh:

scientists took a photo of mras and anti-sj bloggers everywhere and combined them all into this image of the average anti-sj blogger

truly amazing

What’s this? Judging someone based solely on their appearance and shaming them for being a virgin? My how progressive, way to get rid of the societal gender pressures and advocate a society where a man’s worth isnt determined by his sexual prowess

Such feminism. Very gender role smashing. Wow.

Shaming women for being promiscuous or not complying with expected physical maintenance habits (ie shaving)? HORRIBLE, MISOGYNISTIC, HOW DARE YOU!

Shaming men for not being promiscuous or not complying with expected physical maintenance habits? lolz

You did the equality! Congrats!

(Source: throh-moved)

person: do u want to hang out

me: i have to ask my mom

me: *doesn't ask her*

me: she said no